life...

Life is a box of chocolates... I really do not know what I am gonna get. I hope for the caramel and chocolate piece... but then I get the cherry filling... YUCK!

School is not so hot... but I am trying. I kinda have an instructor from h***!!! But I will finish this class, this time. I will be ok with whatever grade I get... then take a break. It is weird... I think that my motivation is just not there, like it used to be. I feel like I have been hitting a brick wall and then backing up and hitting it again and again!

Work is well, I think that mental break from the holiday was just the ticket! I needed that-BAD! My goal is to change one persons life a day... so far, I have! I am super excited and more pumped then before. The strange thing is- that I am not doing anything different then before. I think that I am just mentally rested.

Clarissa, well- she is doing well. Starting the Gym Khanna and Kids on Critters thing- she is having a blast! Getting better every time.

Learning Things ALL over again...

I cannot believe that I have weak moments thru all this, still. It has been a while...But still, I have them. Why can't we just twitch our nose and it all be done.

I really try to create this persona that I am ok and that nothing is dragging me down... mostly to keep my outlook positive... because I have to, this is the only way that I will get thru this. If I don't I should be locked away with a straight jacket. Just kidding.

I guess, I am just nervous about everything... and unsure about everything....I am not a fan of dating...and I don't know how to trust...I don't want to get hurt and I know that I will...

Back To The Daily Routine Of Life...

Well, I worked on Melissa's ranch today- I mucked stalls, added wood chips, took out the mud, added rocks to the stalls, cleaned out the hay bales area...I worked pretty hard...and the cool thing is, my back feels great. I was able to ride Zoe as a reward. Clarissa and Jordan rode for about 3 hours today... I feel good... well, my allergies are running crazy, but everything else is good to go! I have to say that this was a good day... and the last day of my vacation - so back to reality-work and school... Clarissa starts school tomorrow...Volleyball starts Thursday.... and back to my routine.