Life happens so fast. Sometimes we fall, sometimes we stumble, and sometimes we trip. Either way, we are moving in the forward direction.

We wonder how our lives get so twisted and tangled in life and why we choose to make the desicions that we make. Whether they are good decisions or bad- it is what it is... and as long as you found the lesson or learned from it- then it is all to the good.

There are so mamy things that I would like to say, but somehow I am speechless. My emotions are all over the place, yet I still try to wear a smile and press on. Am I just dismissing it or am I not accknowledging it? I don't know.

There is a whole other world out there that I do not know of- I am super excited yet scared- to do it alone.

Bumpy roads are along my paths that I am taking-and they are getting more lonely then ever- I have a huge support system in place and I am super thankful for them and of them... however, I am still alone.

I just hope that things work out in the end.

Random...

What I want to say and what I can say on this blog- GRRR- So frustrated!

Having a weak moment where I am second guessing myself on everything. Am I pretty.... Am I good enough as a mother, as a person, for others, for myself...Am I good person overall... Am I a good mother at all... Am I doing everything that I was put on this Earth to do...
Because in the last few weeks, I have had mixed messages. I have to say- brings a high- and a real low! Especially if I am a good mother or not. My heart breaks- and I hurt. Tears just ball up thinking about it.

I am just trying to get thru each and every day... I am trying to breathe and still be able to have time for my daughter, myself and the people that are supportive of me. I feel like I am overlooking my life from above and just watching myself stumble and fall flat on my face- over and over again!

Hate feeling like I am up in the air- cuz the wind does stop blowing and dies down enough to fall.

Just know that although I look together, I am so falling apart... Yeah- and that bothers me... But what can I do?

So much on my plate- and I feel like that hole is getting deeper and deeper...