Random...

What I want to say and what I can say on this blog- GRRR- So frustrated!

Having a weak moment where I am second guessing myself on everything. Am I pretty.... Am I good enough as a mother, as a person, for others, for myself...Am I good person overall... Am I a good mother at all... Am I doing everything that I was put on this Earth to do...
Because in the last few weeks, I have had mixed messages. I have to say- brings a high- and a real low! Especially if I am a good mother or not. My heart breaks- and I hurt. Tears just ball up thinking about it.

I am just trying to get thru each and every day... I am trying to breathe and still be able to have time for my daughter, myself and the people that are supportive of me. I feel like I am overlooking my life from above and just watching myself stumble and fall flat on my face- over and over again!

Hate feeling like I am up in the air- cuz the wind does stop blowing and dies down enough to fall.

Just know that although I look together, I am so falling apart... Yeah- and that bothers me... But what can I do?

So much on my plate- and I feel like that hole is getting deeper and deeper...