Well, here I go again. Another stupid idiotic pity party! How dumb can I be? BTW- my hands are still tired and shaky... and my arms are like noodles! (I think I am really out of shape) But anyway- you watch a love movie- and what the heck was I thinking or attempting to get out of that... like I felt liberated to take on things or something but... I cried... and then thought that it would be a good idea to be around people. That was even dummer! (like that is a word)---ha, new word people...DUMMER! I cried (tried not to, which made it even worse) on the way there. I cried even harder on the way back. I really tried to get out there and be ok... and try to be happy - but that did not work... not even a little. I have a huge headache now- GRRR I am so mad at myself!
This is the first week in a long time that I have no homework, no kid, no plans, and nothing to do. It feels great and wished it forever ago! However, if I am not doing anything, then I am forced to think and play mind games with myself. UM- that is not so good! WHAT THE HECK- snap out of this-
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